When Brian and I met almost 8 years ago, we really liked each other, but we didn't always agree on the way we wanted to do things in the future. One of the major things was me being a stay at home mom or a working mom. We had been raised in different situations and therefore definitely held different opinions. As I progressed through Auburn, my opinion slowly changed, helping me to choose education as a major. By the time I graduated from Auburn, not only was I engaged to this wonderful man, I also held a whole new opinion of working versus not. Praise the Lord that He changes the hearts of those that are ready to change- I can't imagine the stress if we still held differing opinions. Then came the job search of 2007.... and 2008..... and 2009. Last year, I completed what should have been my tenure year with two more years to go until tenure. My dreams of teaching glory had been replaced with my dreams of being a mommy. We began the school year in hopes of getting pregnant and He gave us this precious life inside of me. I am so so excited.
But with this excitement comes a whole different feeling. Today is my last day of school. I love my students, I love my school, I love my faculty. Today, when I walk out the doors, I will not be returning as a 2nd grade teacher, but as an outsider. My experience at my two other schools tells me that many of these relationships will not last and certainly won't remain the same and it breaks my heart. I know that staying home is what the Lord has called me to do for a time and I know it will be hard work and wonderful work, but today, I am truly struggling with the adjustment.
So today, I am clinging to God's promises and looking toward the future...
*For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.*
Jeremiah 29:11
Happy Friday!
really looking forward to you being a stay at home mom next year. i'm excited about the hour long phone conversations we're going to have about babies and the little playdates we're going to have! i'm pumped!
ReplyDeleteI am excited for you! Luckily teaching is one of those careers that you can always return to. I never thought I would want to stay home, but the older I get the more I change my mind. Enjoy it!
ReplyDeleteWhat a blessing to be able to stay at home with Emily! We are clinging to that verse as well, knowing we have some changes in our future as well. It is such a comfort to know that God will continually look out for us :)
ReplyDeleteI had a really hard time leaving today as well. It's just not easy to close a chapter in your life that you feel that you've worked so hard at..especially for us when we've spent practically our entire career since college trying to keep a job, and now we are leaving it. But I promise you once you hold Emily Ann for the first time, you will never look back. You are fulfilling God's will for your life and He is pleased with you. Love you!
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