When Brian and I met almost 8 years ago, we really liked each other, but we didn't always agree on the way we wanted to do things in the future. One of the major things was me being a stay at home mom or a working mom. We had been raised in different situations and therefore definitely held different opinions. As I progressed through Auburn, my opinion slowly changed, helping me to choose education as a major. By the time I graduated from Auburn, not only was I engaged to this wonderful man, I also held a whole new opinion of working versus not. Praise the Lord that He changes the hearts of those that are ready to change- I can't imagine the stress if we still held differing opinions. Then came the job search of 2007.... and 2008..... and 2009. Last year, I completed what should have been my tenure year with two more years to go until tenure. My dreams of teaching glory had been replaced with my dreams of being a mommy. We began the school year in hopes of getting pregnant and He gave us this precious life inside of me. I am so so excited.
But with this excitement comes a whole different feeling. Today is my last day of school. I love my students, I love my school, I love my faculty. Today, when I walk out the doors, I will not be returning as a 2nd grade teacher, but as an outsider. My experience at my two other schools tells me that many of these relationships will not last and certainly won't remain the same and it breaks my heart. I know that staying home is what the Lord has called me to do for a time and I know it will be hard work and wonderful work, but today, I am truly struggling with the adjustment.
So today, I am clinging to God's promises and looking toward the future...
*For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.*